Dear First Love,
We meet again after twenty five years since we parted our ways from high school. It’s been so many years ago already,but I still remember, we were friends, those were the days I will not forget,sharing jokes and laughter are the things I cherries most.We were very closed friends that our classmates thought we were in relationship other than friends but we just let them believe that we were. I cherries those time when we were sharing our thoughts and problems.But somehow other being friends I know I was falling in love with you.You were always in my mind, it make me smile just thinking about you. Everyday I was looking forward going to class knowing that I will see you there.But we never talk about our relationship to be more than friends. My guess is we’re not ready to be in relationship at that time, so being just friends is good enough for me knowing that you were there, always ready to make me smile.But then our fourth year was a bit different were not talking as much, we were as close as we were for the last two years, I felt a bit of sadness but other friend was always there for me and unlike we were, we become friends but from the beginning we agree that we were just going to be friends,we both have a different reason why. It hurts me to see that I’m loosing my friend that I love but can I do, we weren’t clear to what to expect in our relationship.And for that reason I was not able to protect myself from getting hurt.On the last day of high school you introduce us your girlfriend, I know her of course, she was in my class in first years but move to a different school the next.To my surprise I did not feel any pain then – so I thought. Knowing that she had crush on you I thought maybe you were just being nice and since our friendship never got these far I thought it was okay.
So, we parted our ways,I move on with my life and never come to come back.I left my high school life full disappointment and hurts,I just want it be over.(But in my heart I know someday I’ll be back to my ALMA MATTER).Through all those you were always in heart and my thought I still love you no matter what.Even thought we ended up not being together I still cherries those time that we together.It was timeless.Knowing in my heart that you also love me like I do.They says first love never dies, I think it’s true. Because even up to now I’m feeling that love for you.Don’t get me wrong I love my husband – he is my life.But somehow there is that part in my hearts that will always love you.
Because of you, my high school memories that I used to hate was not so bad at all.Believing in my heart that you felt the way I do( so I thought) about me is good enough for even thought we parted ways
.Recently I found out that,that girlfriend of yours, were your girlfriend since second year.You could of told me that then since we were friends but you didn’t. You were in relationship with her while showing affection on me that make me believe that you also have feelings for me.Why did you do that me? .Why is it that you make our classmate believe that too.No they don’t just believe they also can see that you care for me.Why did you that.I accept that didn’t end together but making me believe that you care is what hurts me even to these days.
But why it is hurting me now, not back then.Was it because all this years I believe in-spite of that what had happen you also love me?I’m happier now that I found my true and forever love and I don’t think I could be any happier other wise, but I will never forget you because no matter you will always have place in my heart.
I hoping after writing this letter my pain will go away and never to come back.You are not worthy of my love. There is no reason for to me to cry for you, you’re not worth anything.So good unang pag-ibig.
The one that will love you forever